So, my life has always been a little different than your typical student because both of my parents are in the educations system. That means being home alone with my siblings a week or 2 before school because of staff work days, 1 or both of my parents being at my school at all times, and getting to school early and leaving late. None of these are good or bad necessarily, they’re more just slightly annoying than anything.

Yesterday was one of those days when my parents were at school all day. For the most part, my day was really great. I spent a couple hours unpacking into my room from my summer trip while watching TV, experimented with some essential oil recipes, and found where to buy my school books. When my mom got home we went to a teacher store to buy some decorations for her classroom which was pretty cool.

When we get home mom starts making dinner which is all fine and dandy. She tries to play music on the google home mini in the kitchen but it’s not working just right and my sister is messing with it downstairs so she gets a little grumpy. However, once it starts she cools down and is back to her normal self. We sit down to eat dinner, everyone except my dad because he is at a meeting at school, and have fun. My sisters are as annoying as usual of course.

After dinner, my mom and I start looking at books and ordering them (which is a lot more complicated than it seems let me tell ya). We get all that done just to find out that one of my books is provided by the class (oops, I should check my e-mail more often). Since I am already on the computer we start looking at financial stuff for college. This is around the time my dad gets home from what I am sure was a really boring meeting and a long day. He didn’t say much when he got there, but started ripping a piece of paper right by my mom’s ear. So she said, “Can you stop tearing that by my good ear?” This immediately set him off. He threw the pieces on the table and said, “I’m done being yelled at”. He proceeded to slam the toaster off the counter as he stormed out of the kitchen to go hide in his room.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I love my dad. We are really similar in a lot of ways. He is really sweet and cares a lot about his family with some occasional anger issues when he is not feeling well or has had a long day. It is really hard for me because I feel like I can never talk about my dad like this because anyone I would talk to knows my dad, and I do not want them to think he is a crazy abusive mad man because he is far from that. I always feel really uncomfortable in situations when my dad is angry because I am a very non-confrontational, so it gives me anxiety when people are angry.

Well, that’s my day for ya. I hope you have a great day :).

Today I would like to tell you a little bit about myself. I am going to be starting college this fall for which I am very excited. I have been a Christian for the majority of my life, but it seems that I never stop growing no matter how much Bible trivia I know. This summer, I had the wonderful opportunity to participate in an internship where I served God and became very close to my team of 4. I believe that is all the major information you need to know to understand my post, but ya never know, there seems to always be something that slips my mind :).

One of the main things I learned recently is vulnerability. I started this blog because my team and I discussed coping mechanisms. One-by-one we suggested good coping methods for each person, and anonymous blogging was one of my suggestions. My goal for this blog is not only to get all my feelings out that I don’t always feel like I can share with a lot of people but also to show you that struggle is okay as long as you deal with it the right way. Don’t get me wrong, I am in no way the best at coping and processing, so this will be a learning time for me too.

I hope you enjoy the posts to come. I’m honestly not sure if anyone will read these, and that’s okay too.